I am saddened and I am waiting for the numbness to become something more capable…I am frustrated and I am waiting for this frustration to eat up my brain so that I cannot sit idle any longer…watching all that is going around me like a zombie..

Sometimes I wish I was away from all the news and the coverage. Wish I was so mired with my deadlines and my presentations that only ET would catch my eyeballs each day ….

Quota system, some please make me believe that this is in better stand and not just a lazy solution that the politicians are using to cover up half a decade of letting BC be just that…letting them remain illiterate and using these very gimmicks to fill the ballot boxes…someone please make me believe that the discrimination between the haves and have nots will be eventually solved by these quotas…why …do all the have nots, the less empowered, do they all belong to the OBC and Scheduled castes…..??

Someone tell me why should the Maharashtra assembly spent an entire day debating wardrobe malfunction and set an enquiry group to do the needful…..while the farmers, those who have cultivated onion…these left to struggle with the apathy of the government...where are those eyeballs who sit in conference viewing the clipping of the ‘malfunction’ when a farmer commits suicide in the very mandi where he should have been able to sell this produce to provide for his family….

Why does the government spend 29 crores to get the ‘flame’ from Australia to India…why does movie actors and actresses get paid in crores for their dance and drama when it is our players who ‘perform’ …and why does the budget overshoot by 9 crores when all that is accomplished in the bargain to get the ‘flame’ to the next venue….how numb, how many zombies is this country made of ……..And at the other end …..why does a national kabbadi player have to commit suicide….and that to someone who is still in form and not retired…….what is left with a father who earns just 700 rupees per month…..someone promises government jobs and never delivers……why do you need to further frustrate people who are already living on the edge……no one will miss them I am sure of……there are enough hungry stomachs in India who will be ready to play for their country for the ‘promise’ of a decent job…..why care when the supply is in surplus…..simply exploit the opportunity……Ashwariya (I do not care if the spelling is wrong !) is born just once……..girls who can play at the national level is found in every village……Saif ali is celebrated in Australia for his amazing ‘performance’….a stamp has been released by the ‘obliged’ Australian government.

Meerut tragedy is getting coverage and so is the funeral of ‘Rajkumar’…I really do not know what to say……why do mobs occur…….why do people storm DM offices and what goes into the minds of those very people who vandalize the houses on the funereal path of someone…….

I wish I could atleast sleep over it…….but to tell the truth even sleep brings nightmares at times……